Howdy

Invisibility, secrecy, and quietness are all good when you are young.

I came to understand this when the Mike sunk.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qkBDnZqNwIQ

This was the big bad back in the day.  They did sea trials, and she didn't pass.  I remember my frustration at the time because we could have saved so many, but the Russians had such distrust
that had been fostered over the years, that they wouldn't let us near.  I think not all hands were lost, but we could have helped.  I remember watching, helpless, while this occurred.

That is when I realized how much ego sucks.

Here I am so many years later.  If I hear one more time that it does no good to mourn, when you could be doing something..blah blah blah.  I could just scream.

I am doing something.  I am honoring the lost.  I honor the living too, as much as they allow me. Most folks are too busy with themselves and judging others to recognize it until it is too late.  Such is life.

Most of the people in my life merely hold me in contempt right now.   People make up their own reasons for things.

I am at a point in my life that I am finished with obligations.  And promises, as it turns out.

And wants that will never become reality.

It is what it is.  We all get here.  It's never pretty.  Sorry for those of you that signed on unknowingly.

I've learned life lessons just a little too late.  But not all, and I ain't gone yet.